a day full of mess

its not exactly like that its just that i have my own problems that sometimes i think i would fail or die or do something.. i just don't know what to do when i fail my test, 

well i just did and most of them i don't know how to survive high school

turns out it gives me headache and i wanted to die.. i just wonder what to do.. my parents are so mad about me failing its like for me i wanted to cry to because i really do try my best in everything that i could and i just really don't see the right results i should have when i receive my test paper. 

i practically studied hard this time.. because i bet life would be less complicated and i really want to shut up and let my mind do the work..

most of the times i just listen to the teacher and stare at them copy notes and i pass.. weird right?? i really don't know what to do.. i just wish that i had a brain like my other classmates who just stares at the black bored and poof they know exactly how to fix the problem.. well it pretty much happens to everyone who is smart but sometimes they study too.. like in advance they study harder i try to do that but somehow.. my brain doesn't recall it.. i hate myself for easy forgetting the stuff's i shouldn't so thats simply it.. i really don't know what to do in my life but i just want to be a famous artists one day.. thats my only wish study at a good college school. take mass com as a course then i don't know what kind of job would i get... lol

how i wish life was a little less complicated you know. i just wish it was. i really hope it does. i love my life its just hard to live in a crap  like mine.. i just have tons of problems not just Boys also school works and my parents and my twitter followers. and to the viewers of this blog if someone is reading this.. well thats just it.. day got crazier than ever God bless :)