Free Friday!
What is up guys?
It's friday and I didn't go to school! woot! :)
I needed to observe my allergy, it might trigger any moment.
Nothing much happened. Just watched the latest episodes of The Vampire Diaries and Pretty Little Liars. It's just that I can't wait for the next episodes. My day is not really boring. It's just another of my lazy days where I sit down go on tumblr, facebook, twitter or even youtube just to entertain myself.
AND THEN!
someone texted me, my friend. a dude. YES a dude. and don't bother what his name is because there is nothing special going on between us. He is having this thing with my friend its like they're dating but not really exclusive. But he is the brother of my crush before. his the only one who texted me and I don't know what or how I feel. Everything is a mess. With my friends and everything. It's so hard to be friends with people who have this high standard of things inside their heads. It makes me go crazy.
Sometimes I just want to be alone, but I want someone to approach me and tell me that he or she will always be there for me. I know it sounds weird, but that is how I feel right now. Alone and confused. If only I have someone who would know me and vice verse that would be awesome. I want someone to be my best friends and we know everything about each other. That's what I need. but all I get is carrying burdens of people who doesn't have time to listen to me.
Honestly? I miss Denise. She was always there for me. She was a great friend, but we are not classmates now... so its hard to communicate especially with someone controlling. like my friend now... I don't actually hate her. It's just that I have been there for her every second and moment she needs me. But was she there for me? No! of course not! And when you share things to her! All she does is criticize you, instead of help you.
I am so tired of listening and giving opinions. This time I want to be the one to speak and let it all out of my system. Guess I'l never get that right? It's hard to be in a place like that. I sometimes wish and wonder why the hell does this happen to me. Everybody will treat me like a best friend, but I will never find one like me.
If only I could duplicate myself, I seriously would, just so that someone like me would listen to me and would understand me.
I just miss my childhood days when drama doesn't exists and all you need and want is money, food and playing with your friends.
sorry I kept on complaining on my blog entries, its a stress relief to release it this way...
xx, Danzel
It's friday and I didn't go to school! woot! :)
I needed to observe my allergy, it might trigger any moment.
Nothing much happened. Just watched the latest episodes of The Vampire Diaries and Pretty Little Liars. It's just that I can't wait for the next episodes. My day is not really boring. It's just another of my lazy days where I sit down go on tumblr, facebook, twitter or even youtube just to entertain myself.
AND THEN!
someone texted me, my friend. a dude. YES a dude. and don't bother what his name is because there is nothing special going on between us. He is having this thing with my friend its like they're dating but not really exclusive. But he is the brother of my crush before. his the only one who texted me and I don't know what or how I feel. Everything is a mess. With my friends and everything. It's so hard to be friends with people who have this high standard of things inside their heads. It makes me go crazy.
Sometimes I just want to be alone, but I want someone to approach me and tell me that he or she will always be there for me. I know it sounds weird, but that is how I feel right now. Alone and confused. If only I have someone who would know me and vice verse that would be awesome. I want someone to be my best friends and we know everything about each other. That's what I need. but all I get is carrying burdens of people who doesn't have time to listen to me.
Honestly? I miss Denise. She was always there for me. She was a great friend, but we are not classmates now... so its hard to communicate especially with someone controlling. like my friend now... I don't actually hate her. It's just that I have been there for her every second and moment she needs me. But was she there for me? No! of course not! And when you share things to her! All she does is criticize you, instead of help you.
I am so tired of listening and giving opinions. This time I want to be the one to speak and let it all out of my system. Guess I'l never get that right? It's hard to be in a place like that. I sometimes wish and wonder why the hell does this happen to me. Everybody will treat me like a best friend, but I will never find one like me.
If only I could duplicate myself, I seriously would, just so that someone like me would listen to me and would understand me.
I just miss my childhood days when drama doesn't exists and all you need and want is money, food and playing with your friends.
sorry I kept on complaining on my blog entries, its a stress relief to release it this way...
xx, Danzel
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