So Called Best Friends.

hey guys,

If any of you is reading this. 

I have a situation and I just need to tell someone or... something., or write about it. Why? because I don't feel like the people that I am "close" with will be listening and interacting in the right way. I am always the person who understands and just hides her pain aside and erase it all. And then when I remember the pain I cry and write here on my blog or my private diary or just let it all out on twitter. my way of releasing anger. 

Wings, if you don't know who that person is read the post before this. Okay to give you an idea its a she. okay?

Moving on. If you read my title, you are going to wonder why is it my title. Right? Well here is the answer. She has been my friend for a long time now. And somehow nobody likes her attitude and I felt bad that no one likes her so I stayed and have been her friend since then until now. I really don't know a lot of things about her. But I do know is that she hates insects and gross stuff. But on my side, I think she doesn't know anything about me. Even if I tell them that I don't drink soft drinks (which is true). She won't remember it. 

Everybody just loves her. By that I mean if they were to choose a close friend, they would choose her. Instead of the other people around them. Which I have observed for a long time. I don't have any stable friends; seriously I don't. And  I don't think I will find any. 

Seriously, why is it so hard to find that someone who would never leave your side and will never push the wrong buttons and will always understand you. PLUS! won't hurt your feelings just because you love something they don't and vise verse. 

Its hard to find that someone who would listen to you and you can share anything with each other, and knowing a lot of things about each other. For me that's real friendship. Getting to know the person being open and not leaving them alone and understanding them; Not making them scared that you will get mad when she speaks (it is what I am facing). I don't like people like that. 

I just need someone to listen and care for me. Someone that would love to know the real me, and when he/she doesn't like the way I act. They would tell it in the most kindest way ever. Someone who would be open to me and I would be the same. That is the kind of relationship I am considering when it comes to having a best friend. 

BUT! as some people say:

"you can't have everything, you want."

The statement is true, but you can change that when you choose the right perspective in life. The way that you think is right and good for you. 

this is my way of saying that i have a lot of problems in life and i need someone who would listen to me. so sorry if I wasted your time :) 

see you on my next blog entry i guess? 

bye!!!

xx, Danzel.

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THANKS FOR STOPPING BY.