Letter to my first love. Chooos

Dear Sidney, 

I miss our friendship. The moments we talked, laughed and acted like we were friends for a long time... Remember 5th grade? I bet you don't... but if you do... well. I love that year... for me it was the time we really got to bond and have fun. We may not know each other that much but I am thankful that you left me with great memories. Your the best friend ever. Also, that was the time I fell in love with you. I was scared to admit it at first. So, I did what everyone would.... To ignore it and don't mind. But I just can't. So I just let it blow up and decide its fate. You are a special friend to me. Then 6th grade came, that was the time when awkwardness started. Everyone was teasing us... it was so hard... I used to pat your hair all the time and I missed it. I loved you so much... and you might not feel the same way before, and maybe it was indeed my imagination. I am sorry for ruining our friendship. you can blame it all on me. I don't really mind. 

Your actions actually confuse me. I hate it. You act like you care... but your words deny it. Why? I remember freshmen year. You hugged me. I will never forget that. For me it was something different. Your hug meant something. And, I am sorry that I didn't hug you back. I was scared that you might let go of me if I moved an inch. I don't know what that hug meant but I really do wish I could return the favor as a friend. You will always have a special place in my heart. FOREVER. I hope that in the near future we could break the awkwardness between us and start fresh and be friends if that is ever possible. I loved you and I always will as a friend. 

I hope our friends could just stop for a minute and give us a break so that we could talk normally... like we used to. And, if you have found THE ONE and its not me? Please tell your brother?! lol. Thank you for everything. Hope to see you and talk to you normally again next time. 

Danzel.