The One Who is Two.

  If you have read Beautiful Creatures, you will understand the title of this entry. I feel like after seeing those message and photo of her to him. I felt pain. Maybe it was jealousy that I would never have what they had and that we would never have what you had with her. I am not desperate for love. But, I want to feel the feeling of having someone care for you even if it is annoying at some points; based from the books I've read and the stories from my friends. It is indeed magical and tragic at the same time.

  I don't know if I'l ever have the guts to have that special someone in my life because I am scared of the pain and the reality that boys do cheat if girls don't serve them well, or if they serve them too well... I haven't had any experience in love or anything, its just that whatever happens I hope that I would do the right thing and would never be in pain again, because I feel like half of me still loves him and half of me despises him. I am not even sure if I have completely moved on already when there is nothing to move on from... Maybe its just the feeling of jealously that I could never have what he had with her. EVER.