I AM FULL OF ANGER. AND I AM NOT KIDDING.
SOMETIMES BEING THE FIRST BORN CHILD IS A BIG STRUGGLE BECAUSE OF ALL THE RESPONSIBILITIES YOU HAVE TO TAKE IN ESPECIALLY WHEN YOU HAVE FUCKING SIBLINGS.
THE MOMENT I STEPPED INTO THIS PLANET MY PARENTS CALLED ME "UGLY" FOR I WAS FAT AND NOT GOOD LOOKING WHEN I WAS YOUNG... WELL THAT'S ACCEPTABLE SINCE I AM STILL UNATTRACTIVE AND HAS NO BOYFRIEND OR SOMEONE HOT TO LIKE ME. I HAVE SPEND MY WHOLE ENTIRETY LIVING A PLACE WHERE MESS IS ALWAYS THERE AND NO ONE WOULD CLEAN IT... EVEN MY MOM SAD TO SAY. I HATE THE FACT THAT I WAS BORN IN A LAZY FAMILY. I DON'T KNOW WHY GOD MADE ME BE THEIR DAUGHTER BUT SOMETIMES I WISH MY PARENTS WERE DIFFERENT.
LIKE WAKING UP TO A SWEET SMELL OF BREAKFAST AND A VERY CLEAN HOUSE, HAVING YOUR OWN ROOM WITH NO ONE BARGING IN AND HAVING A LOT OF PRIVACY AND RESPECT. NO SHOUTING, SCREAMING OR FIGHTING. I KNOW WHAT I WANT IS IMPOSSIBLE SINCE ALL FAMILIES HAS FLAWS BUT, IS IT SO HARD TO ASK FOR A RESPONSIBLE MOM WHO WOULD NOT BURDEN YOU WITH EVERYTHING?! I AM 17 FOR FUCKS SAKE I MUST ENJOY LIFE A LITTLE... BUT I ALWAYS END UP HOLDING ON TO THIS GRUDGE BECAUSE EVERYONE EXPECTS ME TO BE THE RESPONSIBLE ONE.
THEY ALSO COMPARE ME TO MY SMART ASS COUSIN WHO REALLY CAN BALANCE LIFE AND HAS NO LIFE COMPLICATIONS JUST MONEY AND INTERNET SINCE HER PARENTS GIVES HER, HER OWN ROOM, PRIVACY AND TONS OF IT AND A LITTLE PRESSURE BUT SHE IS NOT THAT PRESSURED. SHE IS HAPPY THAT'S WHAT I CAN SAY. BUT I AM NOT HAPPY.
WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I WAS ALWAYS COMPARED TO A LOT OF KIDS MY AGE OR EVEN MY OLDER COUSINS I MIGHT ADD. THEY ALWAYS SEEM TO SEE THE WORST IN ME AND PRESSURE ME TO BE SOMEONE WHO IS LIKE THE BEST. WHY CAN'T THEY JUST ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I AM ME AND I AM NOT HAPPY WITH WHAT THEY WANT ME TO BE. I AM ONE OF THOSE TEENAGERS WHO HAS CLEAN LOCKERS AND A CLEAN BAG BUT MY ROOM IS FULL OF MESS THAT IS NOT EVEN MINE. FCK THIS.
MY MOM LEFT THE HOUSE TODAY IN RUINS I HAVE TO CLEAN THE DISHES, WASH CLOTHES AND EVEN MAKE THEIR BED WHICH IS NOT MY FUCKING BED. I WISH I HAD MY OWN ROOM WHERE I CAN JUST HAVE EVERYTHING ORGANIZED AND I REALLY WANT IT TO HAVE A LOCK BECAUSE I AM FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW.
THEY ALWAYS THINK THAT I AM HAPPY, CHEERFUL AND FULL OF LIFE. BUT IN REALITY IM STUCK IN THIS BLACK HOLE OF RESPONSIBILITIES AND ANGER BECAUSE I NEVER GET TO RUN AWAY FROM THEM.
I WOULD UNDERSTAND THE STUDYING PART... BUT WASHING EVERYONES CLOTHES? CLEANING THE HOUSE ALL BY MYSELF? FUCK LIFE. IF THIS IS WHY I AM HERE. GOD BLESS MY SOUL, PUTANGINA MAG PAPAKAMATAY TALAGA AKO KUNG PWEDE LANG.
THE MOMENT I STEPPED INTO THIS PLANET MY PARENTS CALLED ME "UGLY" FOR I WAS FAT AND NOT GOOD LOOKING WHEN I WAS YOUNG... WELL THAT'S ACCEPTABLE SINCE I AM STILL UNATTRACTIVE AND HAS NO BOYFRIEND OR SOMEONE HOT TO LIKE ME. I HAVE SPEND MY WHOLE ENTIRETY LIVING A PLACE WHERE MESS IS ALWAYS THERE AND NO ONE WOULD CLEAN IT... EVEN MY MOM SAD TO SAY. I HATE THE FACT THAT I WAS BORN IN A LAZY FAMILY. I DON'T KNOW WHY GOD MADE ME BE THEIR DAUGHTER BUT SOMETIMES I WISH MY PARENTS WERE DIFFERENT.
LIKE WAKING UP TO A SWEET SMELL OF BREAKFAST AND A VERY CLEAN HOUSE, HAVING YOUR OWN ROOM WITH NO ONE BARGING IN AND HAVING A LOT OF PRIVACY AND RESPECT. NO SHOUTING, SCREAMING OR FIGHTING. I KNOW WHAT I WANT IS IMPOSSIBLE SINCE ALL FAMILIES HAS FLAWS BUT, IS IT SO HARD TO ASK FOR A RESPONSIBLE MOM WHO WOULD NOT BURDEN YOU WITH EVERYTHING?! I AM 17 FOR FUCKS SAKE I MUST ENJOY LIFE A LITTLE... BUT I ALWAYS END UP HOLDING ON TO THIS GRUDGE BECAUSE EVERYONE EXPECTS ME TO BE THE RESPONSIBLE ONE.
THEY ALSO COMPARE ME TO MY SMART ASS COUSIN WHO REALLY CAN BALANCE LIFE AND HAS NO LIFE COMPLICATIONS JUST MONEY AND INTERNET SINCE HER PARENTS GIVES HER, HER OWN ROOM, PRIVACY AND TONS OF IT AND A LITTLE PRESSURE BUT SHE IS NOT THAT PRESSURED. SHE IS HAPPY THAT'S WHAT I CAN SAY. BUT I AM NOT HAPPY.
WHEN I WAS YOUNGER I WAS ALWAYS COMPARED TO A LOT OF KIDS MY AGE OR EVEN MY OLDER COUSINS I MIGHT ADD. THEY ALWAYS SEEM TO SEE THE WORST IN ME AND PRESSURE ME TO BE SOMEONE WHO IS LIKE THE BEST. WHY CAN'T THEY JUST ACCEPT THE FACT THAT I AM ME AND I AM NOT HAPPY WITH WHAT THEY WANT ME TO BE. I AM ONE OF THOSE TEENAGERS WHO HAS CLEAN LOCKERS AND A CLEAN BAG BUT MY ROOM IS FULL OF MESS THAT IS NOT EVEN MINE. FCK THIS.
MY MOM LEFT THE HOUSE TODAY IN RUINS I HAVE TO CLEAN THE DISHES, WASH CLOTHES AND EVEN MAKE THEIR BED WHICH IS NOT MY FUCKING BED. I WISH I HAD MY OWN ROOM WHERE I CAN JUST HAVE EVERYTHING ORGANIZED AND I REALLY WANT IT TO HAVE A LOCK BECAUSE I AM FUCKING PISSED RIGHT NOW.
THEY ALWAYS THINK THAT I AM HAPPY, CHEERFUL AND FULL OF LIFE. BUT IN REALITY IM STUCK IN THIS BLACK HOLE OF RESPONSIBILITIES AND ANGER BECAUSE I NEVER GET TO RUN AWAY FROM THEM.
I WOULD UNDERSTAND THE STUDYING PART... BUT WASHING EVERYONES CLOTHES? CLEANING THE HOUSE ALL BY MYSELF? FUCK LIFE. IF THIS IS WHY I AM HERE. GOD BLESS MY SOUL, PUTANGINA MAG PAPAKAMATAY TALAGA AKO KUNG PWEDE LANG.
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