New Shoes, New Life?

Saturday, September 13 2014. My mom figured that I needed a new pair of shoes for school. I don't actually ask them to buy me new shoes because I know how broke my parents are. I mean, I do study in a good expensive school but they manage to pay it anyway. I am thankful for all the blessings God has given us and I should not be tolerating that. I think I should do something about it. But, right now... I'm not doing anything. I don't know. Laziness got me like this.

I always dreamed of being successful in the future, but whenever I think about it. I realize that I really do need all the medals I could get because who would get a job with failing grades right? I mean come on, I need it. I always think that to be successful in life is to be successful in school too. Not, just the typical graduate. What I mean is the one with awards and distinction. I think most companies would get those girls who got good grades and are just plain awesome. 

I wish I could be successful in the field I have chosen. I don't like the idea of being an underdog but I have never done something about it. I don't know. laziness loves me so much its my disease. But, on the latter part at least I have done my homework and project I just have to study for my exams and quizzes which kind of sucks. Also, finals is like 4 weeks away. And, I haven't done anything about it. I sometimes wish I was Hermoine from Harry Potter because she is so damn smart and she studies in advance and when she reads a book, she memorizes it without a problem and can answer the teacher on pronto. 

Your grades can't define your future, they say... But I think it can help you determine your future, without it you would just be another waste on earth. Grades could help you get a good job, also the school name counts but the grades count more. It is the most important thing at the moment. The moment you leave your parents house and decide to look for a job and live by yourself and just get on with life well that is how it is and you should accept it. You should do well in your school in order to get a job. And, I am scared of that outcome I don't like it. I feel like if I failed minor subjects it can still determine my future. I don't like thinking about it that way, but that is how your school makes you think about it... your parents, and other relatives who gives a damn about you and your shitty life. 

Although this things are mostly complains, I am thankful that I have parents who supports the career I chose and even though they keep on saying negative things I think it can kind of help me to study better and do better in school. Well, hopefully.