Trying too hard.
I am trying my best to be the best.
What the hell am I saying? Anyway. I feel like I am going to collapse any moment because I have a lot of things in my mind but I never do anything about it. Isn't that awesome? Now, I am the laziest bitch ever. I will regret everything later.
You know that moment when your just sad even when your with people that you do get along with? I mean I don't talk that much anymore... Maybe its because I have this problem with myself and I don't feel like talking anymore. I am more careful because I have a mouth that spits knife and could get me into a lot of trouble. And, I don't want that of course. I am in College and I study with a tons of girls, and there are no boys around. I am actually contended and happy. I'd rather have that than seeing couples holding hands and flirting around campus; That would have made me more THIRSTY.
So, whenever I see couples around, I will be thinking on ways on how to murder them and tell them to stop shoving it to single people who would be alone for a while because... Honestly? Its really annoying to see people being sweet with each other in a public car acting like no one cares. I mean, hello? I exist and I don't like it when people shove it in my face that I would be alone forever.
Just to see a handsome face today is one of the best highlights of my day... Even if I have mixed feelings about my block mates in College. I feel so isolated and miserable at the same time. I don't like the feeling of being left out or not being able to fit in anywhere. Whenever I'm in that situation all I ever wanted to do was to hide or disappear and be with my high school friends instead.
Finding the right kind of peoplr to hang out with is probably the hardest part of life. Because, I mean come on... Deep down inside all we wan is love and care from someone rather than our family. And that would be the greatest feeling ever. Sad to say, I have not achieved that just yet this College year.
What the hell am I saying? Anyway. I feel like I am going to collapse any moment because I have a lot of things in my mind but I never do anything about it. Isn't that awesome? Now, I am the laziest bitch ever. I will regret everything later.
You know that moment when your just sad even when your with people that you do get along with? I mean I don't talk that much anymore... Maybe its because I have this problem with myself and I don't feel like talking anymore. I am more careful because I have a mouth that spits knife and could get me into a lot of trouble. And, I don't want that of course. I am in College and I study with a tons of girls, and there are no boys around. I am actually contended and happy. I'd rather have that than seeing couples holding hands and flirting around campus; That would have made me more THIRSTY.
So, whenever I see couples around, I will be thinking on ways on how to murder them and tell them to stop shoving it to single people who would be alone for a while because... Honestly? Its really annoying to see people being sweet with each other in a public car acting like no one cares. I mean, hello? I exist and I don't like it when people shove it in my face that I would be alone forever.
Just to see a handsome face today is one of the best highlights of my day... Even if I have mixed feelings about my block mates in College. I feel so isolated and miserable at the same time. I don't like the feeling of being left out or not being able to fit in anywhere. Whenever I'm in that situation all I ever wanted to do was to hide or disappear and be with my high school friends instead.
Finding the right kind of peoplr to hang out with is probably the hardest part of life. Because, I mean come on... Deep down inside all we wan is love and care from someone rather than our family. And that would be the greatest feeling ever. Sad to say, I have not achieved that just yet this College year.
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