Separation.

 I do not want to think that my parents could split up. I hate my mom for being so insecure and for my dad because he made her that way. I don't want to end up choosing between my parents. It's like being asked if you wanted cellphone or computer.

 To think that your parents marriage could end up in ruins makes me want to believe that their is no such thing as love. Well, only God loves us truly, but humans are not capable of true love. My dad asked me yesterday if it was okay that he won't go home that much anymore. I really don't like that idea. I swear. I swear I cannot bear it. I want to see my dad at home every night complaining and doing shit and stuff. I may not show him or my mom that I love them. I do... It's just that I am not good in showing it and it kind of sucks.

 I don't understand the idea of love. I think to love is to get hurt, learn from it, then try again.


have a blessed day