Just one yesterday.

 If I could go back in time and change everything I would. But, changing the past can affect the future. And I am scared of changes if the outcome is bad. But, if I could change it for the better. Why not right? I feel like I am falling apart drowning myself in sorrow and agony. Everywhere I go all I see is pain. I feel like God is calling me to just trust Him. That after this storm, everything would be better. I am scared of what the future has to show me.


I am scared of facing the truth and I would rather stay here and be bored or something. I am not famous. I don't think I ever will be. That is why I have this kind of shits in my life. Maybe one day... People will discover this and be like ' what kind of a reckless bitch. wasting time online posting shit about her life and the people she hates'. Well, isn't that the purpose of blogs... and the reason why I had it on private?

My parents  thinks I am happy, and most of the time they thinl I am a lazy shit who does not know how to do laundry. I am full of responsibilities that blows my mind and makes me want to kill myself.  I don't think I will ever be happy unless I can satisfy the needs of others.