I have to let this go.
I have been a fan of One Direction since I was in 2nd year high school. And, I regret nothing. I mean they are the best. For me they are saviors.
They have saved my broken heart from someone who does not deserve my tears. I know that we had no relationship and stuff but his actions just, it was like what people say "actions speaks louder than words" I think the problem with me is, I thought I was going to have a nice love story for once in my life. I have always dreamed of having that special someone since I was a kid. To be loved in return to feel that love and to be with someone who would look at you and you would feel special and you would wish that every moment with that person would never end. I have let my feelings towards him just I don't know. I think I just mainly ignored it? He has a girlfriend now anyway, like I think I was dumb enough to think that he would do something about his feelings for me. But, he didn't. I think the fact that I got fat or I got ugly skin was the reason why. I don't know. Because the girl he fancies is really way prettier than me. Like, her friends are so pretty but they are a bunch of bitches. Like bitches who cheats and does not have the nice fucking manners. In short, they could be "sluts".
I really hate the idea of thinking of him at the moment, but he's the only thing that I remember and I am thankful that during that heart break which I think I have no right to feel because we didn't even have a relationship. The boys saved me. Their songs made me feel special, I am thankful for them. They made me believe that someone out there would say those things to me just like the way they did. I really wish they were my friends though. I mean imagine if you had the one direction boys for friends right? I think I would never fall for them if that happens. or maybe I will and they would just treat me like one of their friends.
Because my friends who are dudes does that. Its just awkward to be boyfriends with your friends. Like, I mean come on. Right? I mean it is really awkward. I really wish I had that person who is brave enough to just be like "You know what, even if you think you're not that pretty. In my eyes you are. And I am so happy that you are mine." If someone told me these, I don't know... maybe I will be a fool but I know I should think about it first. I don't know, its hard to trust people when it comes to love. I have accepted the fact that people are a bunch of liars. I mean, if parents fight, and they cheat on each other or something... I don't believe in love anymore. Unless, we are talking about God here. That is a different story. But to have that person? I have gave up on love the moment I fell in love with the boys. I am thankful and I regret nothing.
They have saved my broken heart from someone who does not deserve my tears. I know that we had no relationship and stuff but his actions just, it was like what people say "actions speaks louder than words" I think the problem with me is, I thought I was going to have a nice love story for once in my life. I have always dreamed of having that special someone since I was a kid. To be loved in return to feel that love and to be with someone who would look at you and you would feel special and you would wish that every moment with that person would never end. I have let my feelings towards him just I don't know. I think I just mainly ignored it? He has a girlfriend now anyway, like I think I was dumb enough to think that he would do something about his feelings for me. But, he didn't. I think the fact that I got fat or I got ugly skin was the reason why. I don't know. Because the girl he fancies is really way prettier than me. Like, her friends are so pretty but they are a bunch of bitches. Like bitches who cheats and does not have the nice fucking manners. In short, they could be "sluts".
I really hate the idea of thinking of him at the moment, but he's the only thing that I remember and I am thankful that during that heart break which I think I have no right to feel because we didn't even have a relationship. The boys saved me. Their songs made me feel special, I am thankful for them. They made me believe that someone out there would say those things to me just like the way they did. I really wish they were my friends though. I mean imagine if you had the one direction boys for friends right? I think I would never fall for them if that happens. or maybe I will and they would just treat me like one of their friends.
Because my friends who are dudes does that. Its just awkward to be boyfriends with your friends. Like, I mean come on. Right? I mean it is really awkward. I really wish I had that person who is brave enough to just be like "You know what, even if you think you're not that pretty. In my eyes you are. And I am so happy that you are mine." If someone told me these, I don't know... maybe I will be a fool but I know I should think about it first. I don't know, its hard to trust people when it comes to love. I have accepted the fact that people are a bunch of liars. I mean, if parents fight, and they cheat on each other or something... I don't believe in love anymore. Unless, we are talking about God here. That is a different story. But to have that person? I have gave up on love the moment I fell in love with the boys. I am thankful and I regret nothing.
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