somewhere in between

I am tired, I have lost all faith and courage in my block mates. I swear I have the laziest and the meanest ones in class.

They all suck. well, except for my friends but those people with attitude and has no respect for the school nor anything at all. I mean. I don't get it. Why do you hate our school so much? If you hate it why not leave and transfer to another school? I mean be thankful that you have studied in a good school and not just some school that does not give the good education that you are receiving now.

I have like low tolerance of patience. I don't like waiting. I think I should be strict and mean when it comes to deadlines but in the end I'm like. I don't really care anymore. Because they won't even listen anyway so, I just feel like giving up. Waiting for the consequence to fucking kill me and well whatever.

I just want to get things over with.