back at home... and i don't like it.

they say home should be the safest and most chill place you are ever at, but i don't feel that anymore... with my parents fighting again, and me getting stuck in between, I'd rather I sleep over at someones house and stay there than be at home where my mom would always bug me about their fight. I mean, I have this perspective in the near future that this could fucking happen to me, I know the chances are like slim but even if it is slim, it is fucking possible and I don't like to have my kids go through such kind of stress, it is not helping in a very mental level

I really hate the fact that my parents are fighting and they are putting me in the middle of it, well its mostly my mom's fault, but I do understand her. Its just that I really hate the feeling of having this big weight of tension at home when I should not feel it. I was at my friends house last night and I swear it was the best nights that I have since I am away from home and the responsibilities that I have at home. I mean, I like that we have our own house, and I do have my own room but I just hate the fact that I don't feel as comfortable as I used to. I always feel uneasy and stressed when I should not be feeling that way. I miss my classmates house... how comforting it is to be at someone's house where you have nothing to worry about but waking up late and constantly greeting the people at her home for respect and courtesy.