another "weekend" over
Hello,
Yes, I have posted this on a Tuesday. My day off is every Monday and Tuesday, so I am back to reality tomorrow... Damn.
I am currently watching How I Met Your Mother SEASON 9! Yes, I am almost finish with watching this series. I cannot believe it, time flies so fast.
I am actually enjoying my "weekend" but the thought of going back to work tomorrow and just being with a bunch of people that I somehow am still testing the waters with... is like... meh. I am so not looking forward to it. I might eat my own words by the end of this month or something. But, I don't think I'l ever click to someone as much as I did with one of them, and he's a guy who loves to read books. I have not talked to him but you know what I'm saying. I also am close with this girl or woman should I say and I just cannot even. I mean, yeah we are "close" but. Here's the thing. I posted a meme on facebook and she just had to leave a comment on it and message me on private. I don't know but does she not get it that I am having a midlife crisis? I know that I am a bit too young for that but I am 21 years old and I don't even know if what I'm doing is something that I enjoy and really like.
I am a graduate of Media Production, I took that course because I love being creative and sharing stories to make other people happy or just feel emotions. The creative process may be tiring but its the best thing that I could ever do. I love it. I love sharing ideas and doing creative things that I never thought I could.
At work, yes I do get to communicate with people, I help them with their questions and give them the best solution that I could give but is it really what I wanted in life? I just want something that would really make me happy and something that I REALLY would enjoy. I am enjoying my job but being creative is a big part of my life. The media scene is something that I really wanted that is why I am having doubts with the career that I chose. I am blaming myself and the media industry for being such a bitch and for being choosy when it comes to this kind of things.
I just want her to leave me alone and not care at all. I mean, I hope she understand that I am young and I have a lot of dreams in life and part of that is to pursue my dream to be able to work in the movie industry.
Maybe someday, I'll be back and be happy with my career choices.
I hope everything works out.
Yes, I have posted this on a Tuesday. My day off is every Monday and Tuesday, so I am back to reality tomorrow... Damn.
I am currently watching How I Met Your Mother SEASON 9! Yes, I am almost finish with watching this series. I cannot believe it, time flies so fast.
I am a graduate of Media Production, I took that course because I love being creative and sharing stories to make other people happy or just feel emotions. The creative process may be tiring but its the best thing that I could ever do. I love it. I love sharing ideas and doing creative things that I never thought I could.
At work, yes I do get to communicate with people, I help them with their questions and give them the best solution that I could give but is it really what I wanted in life? I just want something that would really make me happy and something that I REALLY would enjoy. I am enjoying my job but being creative is a big part of my life. The media scene is something that I really wanted that is why I am having doubts with the career that I chose. I am blaming myself and the media industry for being such a bitch and for being choosy when it comes to this kind of things.
I just want her to leave me alone and not care at all. I mean, I hope she understand that I am young and I have a lot of dreams in life and part of that is to pursue my dream to be able to work in the movie industry.
Maybe someday, I'll be back and be happy with my career choices.
I hope everything works out.
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