The fear of the unknown

Hello,

I am scared. I mean, who isn't? right?

I have been through 4 jobs already, and only 1 is not relating to my course, or choice of field when I was in college.

Now, I am at my 4th job. Its actually a freelance job. My old boss' from my intern days just messaged me out of the blue and asked me to work for them as a part-time employee which means I could leave whenever I feel like it. I mean, don't get me wrong I am enjoying it. I love it. I'm just scared that I might enjoy it too much that I might loose it as soon as I love it or get used to it. You know? It's like the norm of my daily adult life. Look for a job, which is hard by the way. Get it, and then stay there and then I would find it difficult or maybe I would love but either way, I would leave or they would make me leave. Life is complicated and I think I am having anxiety as I type this entry because I am literally scared. I don't know if what I am doing is right or wrong. Like, can God please bless me.

I really need help. I need assurance. I am scared.

I hope your day is better than mine.

Sincerely,

Nicole