Transition from College to Work Life / Real World

Hello, I have had this blog for a long time. 

And, I have a confession to make. 

Well, not really a confession, I just need to type down my feelings without filter and judgement. 

As you can see or if you have been following me on this blog... I graduated from College last May 2018. It has been a year since I have been a student, and by now I should have been able to adjust to the lifestyle that is adulthood. In a span of 1 year, I have been to 4 different jobs. This 4th one right now is my current one. 

What happened?

I graduated with the degree of Media Production. Which means, that I would like to pursue ANY career that is related to the media industry, whether it be Advertising, TV network, Movies, Broadcasting, Radio, or Magazine and Books. Since, there is a lot of competition when it comes to looking for jobs, I actually was asked by my dad to apply to one of the biggest TV networks here in the Philippines. I did pass actually, it just took them like a month to inform me about it. My first job is actually a customer service consultant for a company that handles your money. I worked for PayPal Australia. Wow, I did say that. Anyway, yes I worked and trained for 6 months. The pay was good but I was constantly having breakdowns in between shifts. I cry for no reason and I was pressured because we had to have good scores and as hard as I try, it is not showing at all. My hard work is not reflecting and it gave me stress and anxiety and fear that they would have me removed. So before that happens, I resigned. 

My second job was so fucking short I didn't even place it in my resume. Why? I don't see the relevance of it being there and honestly my co-workers there hated it as well. In a span of 3 weeks 3 of us left that bitchy boss we worked for. It was just plain bullshit and unrealistic results. She wanted results  faster than The Flash could run from one place to another. So, I resigned again. 

After a few days, my mom found this opening in a production house, and it was actually a job that I was looking for. I applied and was there for 5 months. I loved the job, and I was enjoying it. I had money, I was adjusting at first but I got the hang of it you know? I thought I was doing well but by July 11, they broke up with me. WOW. Kidding, they asked me to hand in my resignation letter that states that July 11 is my last day and vow to never return. No, I just got so broken that I deleted every connection I had with them that were not really close to me and I was looking for a job again. 30 days went by and I got my last pay check.

Where am I right now?

August 5, 2019. My boss from the company that I interned at messaged me on facebook and instagram. I was shocked that they messaged me, since I was desperate for a job I went to their office since they asked me to go there. They talked to me and asked me how my life is going and if I currently have a job, and I said no. So, they asked me if I would like to work for them as a freelancer and just assist them with whatever it is that they need. So, I said yes and by the next day I started working for them. 

Why is the title of this blog confusing if you already had a ton of jobs?

Monday, August 19, 2019. My bosses who I was closed to a year ago from my internship days talked to me about life. They were asking me personal questions that I sure enough was not ready to answer. They got me so confused and I knew that they meant well but I felt like I should leave and do some soul searching. I have been jumping from one job to another. 2 months after graduation, and I got that call center job, and then I transferred to another job that was like 2 hours away from my house. After that, 1 week I got the job from that production house, and then they told me to leave.  25 days later, I got this job that I have right now. Many things happened in my life that I am not ready to share at all. I don't easily open up to people because its so hard to open up to someone who could end up as your enemy and use those stories you told them against you. 

My current boss actually did that now. She told me that my rapport with them might be the reason my 3rd job asked me to quit. And, I was offended because I was actually friends with almost everyone in the company. I was very careful and, I loved everyone, for them to tell me that? I don't know I was too sad and it emotionally hit me that I would like to leave but I can't because I got no money and I need money to survive. I don't ask my parents for anything anymore. Yes, they do give me shelter and food but me going out with friends, having fun. They don't give me money anymore unless I have a job then they won't bother. 

I just feel so down, I don't know what to do. I hope something good will happen, and everything is a process. 

CONCLUSION: The transition from College to Work is not easy. We students were used to always getting instructions and following it. I don't know what I would do without the instruction manual. I do not like making small mistakes especially if the task is super simple. I don't even know if I am fit to work for any of these bitchy companies. But I do hope that one day, I would be able to overcome this and just be happy with whatever it is that I will be doing. 

Good bye!