i'm going to work... but freelance.

Hello,

I am sad. I don't feel okay. I feel so down and broken and I am not excited at all. I think I'm broken. I have faith in God and everything its just that I don't feel like I know myself and trust myself enough to do the right things at my new work. I am afraid that I would be miserable and a failure. I don't know why... I just don't know what to do. How do I get that excitement and happiness back.

I really have no idea. I just need something that would make me happy... I don't know. I just feel like crying and not doing anything at all.

I'l go back to sleep now... I don't feel like myself. I feel like I have lost it.

Somebody save me I'm drowning.