Adult Friendship... How people loose connection with one another.

 Hi! 

I am writing this with half my eyes closed because I am so sleepy. Also, happy 2021 humans. It is another year of well... challenges and blessings. I hope you are all doing well and I hope that I have consistency when it comes to updating this blog of mine. LOL. 

ANYWAY 

            I am finally understanding what my mom is talking about in terms of friendships and how some people are just not... friends... anymore?

            Don't get me wrong, I treasure and love my limited number of friends in real life and I am thankful that they kind of care about me at all. At the same time... there are just moments where we grow up and grow apart from each other in terms of what we are currently doing in society. 

            An example would be my high school friends whom I love so dearly. We have a group chat wherein we talk about whatever we want to talk about. The thing is most of them love to play video games, be it on computer or cellphone... that is what their topics would be all about. And here I am a member of the group chat who does not understand literally anything. I just read whatever it is that they are talking about and never butt in unless they called for me. What I am trying to say is that sometimes we forget that we all have different views on life. We are different from each other and there is a reason why people fall out of friendship. It is a thing. I can attest to that. I had my fair share of friendship breakups over the years so... yeah?!!

           I have always loved the thought of hanging out with my friends and just talking non-sense you know. Catching up with our lives hearing what each other is up to and all that stuff. Now here is the thing, we didn't graduate at the same time. Some are taking medicine and it takes them longer to graduate and apply for jobs and some just delay when it comes to finishing their courses due to personal reasons that some might or might not understand. Don't get me wrong, I salute my friends who are finishing school despite the different circumstances that they are in. 

           Being considerate and understanding is something that does not really pop up with my friends. Both from college and high school my have different statuses in life. 

            What do you mean Nicole? 

            Let me EXPLAIN. 

I did not graduate the same year with some of my friends. 

        Some of my friends took medicine or science courses which requires them to at least study for 5 years and on top of that review for the board exams and after that... is the only time they would be able to really work because their parents value education.

        The others are still in school because of circumstances, they might have failed and are delayed because they had troubles with their thesis, or some move to another country and had no choice but was given a chance to return and decided to pursue school.  

So?

Well, to be honest with you. I am part of the working class now, and I am not bragging about it because it is tiring and I don't really know what to do. I do not have rich parents unlike my college friends and I am definitely not as smart as my high school friends. 

The thing is...

             I look at the world in a different phase and manner now. I am not always available because I am a slave to my boss and I get it we are in different situations. Life goes on, we have to accept change. But not just accept but respect it too! 

            An example would be... if we are in a group and I don't respond I just want to tell you that I am okay. I have no problem, the only thing is I cannot contribute to whatever the topic is all about because I literally know nothing about it. 

            Some are just born rich and do not have to work like me. I get it, at the same time I don't know if  I could ever be able to pull off this friendship because it's complicated. I mean, I do care and love them, at the same time their way of thinking is not of an adult as they think it is. How? For instance, I talk about a job interview and whatever happened. They would not get it because they have never experienced it and because they are rich they might never.  Which makes me out of place and I don't know what to do anymore. 

I'M SO TIRED OF TRYING.